GOODBYE 2009, HELLO 2010!

cguro dito na ako aabutan ng SUPER HAPPY NEW YEAR habang andito ako sa harap ng PC namin para gumawa ng last entry for 2009...

each one of us has their own share of story kung ano ba ang naging buhay niya sa taong ito...

ako? syempre! haller! mauubusan ba ako ng chika!

ang mga kwento ko ay parang bulbol at burnik... di mabilang! yeaboi!

ang unang pasabog sa taong to ay HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATION...

BATCH 2008-2009...

syempre nakakamiss ang lahat...

mga friends, klasmeyts, teachers, crushes...

projects, homeworks, exams, kopyahan...

lahat ng mga tao at pangyayari na may kinalaman sa buhay hayskul ko...

namimiss ko na silang lahat...

so ayun... moving on sa college life...

un ang ikalawang pasabog!

THOMASIAN na ako tol!

as in TOMASINO, TAONG DILAW, TAONG ESPAÑA...

meaning, daranasin ko na ang baha sa maynila...

at ang punyetang polusyon!

bongga diba?!

anyway, i am currently taking up a bachelor's degree on HOTEL AND RESTAURANT MANAGEMENT...

from that day onwards, i am already part of the CTHM FAMILY...

a.k.a. COLLEGE OF TOURISM AND HOSPITALITY MANAGEMENT...

dito matatagpuan ang karamihan sa mga magaganda at macho gwapito ng USTE!

as in HOTNESS TO THE HAYEST LEVEL MA'MEN!

syempre everything comes in combinations para may twist:

gaya ng pangit na big brain. gwapong bobo. magandang taklesa pero tatanga tanga. silent type pero walking internet pala. merong katawan lang ang asset. bahala kang mamili!

but generally speaking, lahat sa college namin ay BEAUTY AND BRAINS naman no!

plus BONGGANG TALENT AT OOZING SEX APPEAL!

puta! parang binubugaw ko na sila ahh... hahaha!

so ayun, naging part ako ng 1H4...

syempre una pa lang sinabi ko nang SIRENA AKO...

mahirap nang paghinalaan ka pa no! mabuti na ung umpisa pa lang alam na nilang BUTTERFLY ako... :)

naging part din ako ng official dance troupe ng college namin...

INTENZYC DANZERGE...

mas lumawak ang social circle ko when i reached college...

nakikita ko pa naman ung mga hayskul friends ko sa campus pero minsan na lang din kami magkasama-sama... syempre kanya kanyang buhay na kami...

1H4, salamat sa lahat - chika, tawanan, sagot sa exam, mura, friendship...
salamat kasi tinanggap niyo ako... malas niyo dahil makakasama niyo pa ako ng 4 na taon... bleh! hahaha!


INTENZYC - salamat sa lahat ng pagkakataon na hinayaan niyo akong ipakita sa mga tao na marunong akong sumayaw... sa mga pasakit sa katawan tuwing training... sa mga pieces of advice as college studs and as dancers...


MGA PROF KO - salamat sa knowledge... sa comedy... sa mga encouragement... sa panlalait... lahat na! di bale, matalino naman to! tanga lang minsan... :)

LAHAT NG COLLEGE BUDDIES - thank you sa mga simpleng hi at hello! masaya na ako dun! as in! di man tayo lagi nagkikita, at least, once in a while, naging parte kayo ng buhay ko...

PORWAN,PORTU,HAYSKUL BATCHMATES - salamat sa apat na taon ng pagkakaibigan. di man tayo close lahat, at least, kilala natin ang isa't isa sa pangalan, mukha at chika... diba?!

ALYSSA 'DUDE' - dude! i love you sis! salamat sa lahat! di man tayo laging nag uusap, may assurance naman na we really care for each other... :) hugs!

POR-EI,POR-BI - mag aral mabuti ha? wag pasaway! mali... imposible pala un sa mga hayskul students... haller! kami rin kaya! hahaha!

at syempre sa mga HAYSKUL TEACHERS ko - salamat ng marami for being one of the reasons why i am what i am now... i am where i am now... thank you so much!

at sa inyong lahat...

SOBRANG SUPER THANK YOU FOR BEING A PART OF MY 2009!

MARAMI PANG TAONG DARATING...

SANA MAKASAMA KO PA KAYO NANG MATAGAL...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

by the way, separate dito ung entry ko about my lovelife this year...

abangan niyo na lang ha? 

hugs!

oy H4, pasukan na sa lunes!

mga puta! hahaha! kitakits!

MY 16TH CHRISTMAS...

syempre... first of alll...

MERRY CHRISTMAS SA INYONG LAHAT!!!

my 16th christmas...

nakakatuwang isipin na inspite all the misfortunes our country went through...

we were still able to survive...

well, that's one characteristic na talagang ipinagmamalaki ko bilang Pilipino...

RESILIENCE is what keeps us going as a nation...

sa lahat po ng Pilipinong dumaan sa matinding pagsubok ngayong taong ito...

binabati at hinahangaan ko po kayo...

kasi sa kabila ng lahat, eto pa rin tayo!

mabuhay ang lahing Pilipino!

eto na... personal message na to... ehem!

sa lahat ng taong naging bahagi ng buhay ko...

ay mali... dapat pala sa new year pa tong mga ganitong linya...

he-he. peace out! :)

pero promise sa new year... bongga ang entry ko dito! as in!

ui mga tao...

salamat sa pagiging bahagi ng buhay ko ah...

anuman ang naging papel niyo...

in one way or another...

u were able to teach me something...

nag iwan ang bawat isa sa inyo ng di malilimutang bakas sa buhay ko...

salamat ha! sobra!

kung anuman ang ginawa niyo sa buhay ko, worth it lahat un...

wala akong pinagsisisihan...

hindi lang to kung anong kadramahan...

galing lahat to sa puso ko mga baliw!

sa kaibuturan ng aking atay balun balunan... :)

sa bestfriend ko... c ALYSSA MARIE CATAPANG CABURAL...

thank you sa pag aayos ng blog ko...

isa pa yan... naku! mahal na mahal ko yang sis kong yan!

sobra! we're more than a family to each other...

dude, salamat sa lahat ah! hugs!

i sound like im going to die...

pero at least nasabi ko na diba? he-he...:)

wait for my next entry ah...

before mag new year...

i love you all! sobra! hugs!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

BENILDE WAS WHERE MY HEART USED TO BE...

NOVEMBER 13, 2009 - FRIDAY...
it was the end of my class for that particular day...
my high school friends texted me that they were in our campus...
well, i was expecting Ezra to be with me on my way home...
but then i was surprised knowing that he's with our batchmates - Judy and Sittie...
we chatted as we go on our way out...
Judy asked me if it's okay to drop by at Benilde to visit, or probably pick up another friend of ours - King...
i was speechless for a moment...
not because of the idea that i was going to see King...
but it's because of this chance to see him...
the guy who was once part of my life...
he who broke my vulnerable heart despite of my tough facade...
his name's Daryl...
well, for some of you, you might know him...
anyway, on our way to Benilde, i kept on chatting with my buddies and laughing our hearts out... we just couldn't help remembering the old days...
but at the back of my mind, i kept on saying that i won't see him there...
i won't!
there we were... we did nothing but laugh and savor the night together...
coz we know that it will take a long time again before we see each other again...
i just drop that stupid idea that's been bothering me that time...
fortunately, i didn't spot him...
there was even moments that we talked about him...
how we parted and the like...
well, i shared them those things...
i wasn't pushed to do so...
it was my choice to open up...
honestly, i didn't recognize any pain last night...
i did think of him, yes, that's true...
but it didn't ruin my mood at all...
i was with my friends whom i wasn't able to talk to for quite a long time so i think there's no reason for me to change my attitude towards the moment...
but what if i saw him?
what if he talked to me?
what if he asked me those questions i wouldn't want to answer?
what will i do?
(sigh...)
well i guess, it's not yet time for us to talk...
we still need time...
i still need time...
i do...
for my high school friends whom i'm with last night...
King, Judy, Sittie, and Ezra...
THANK YOU SO MUCH!
SEE YOU NEXT TIME...
I LOVE YOU GUYS...

ito ang dahilan ng paggulong ko sa kama...

oh my... naaadik na ako sa stallion...
well ganyan talaga ang single...
pati love story ng iba, pinapatulan...
wala ih... wala naman kc akong sariling loves story na
pwede akong mangisay sa kilig every now and then...
charing! hahaha!
anyway, im currently reading the stallion series
by sofia and sonia francesca...
kalat kalat ako magbasa...
hindi sunod sunod...
kung sino matripan ko...
malas niya! hehe...
at this moment... katatapos ko lng basahin si MYCO GOSIACO...
nabaliw ako!
nakalimot!
nangarag!
napraning!
nabuntis!
tinubuan ng matris!
ay sorry... di pala kasama un...
how i wish!
hahaha!
o siya...
malapit na magresume ang klase namin...
umpisa na para sa totoong kabaliwan!
yeaboi!
dadalang na ang entries ko dito...
but dont worry...
i have all the time in the world para magshare ng buhay ko sa inyo...
sa mga magbabasa...
makikibasa...
pati na rin tsismosa...
mag iwan kayo ng comment ha?
ok???
thank you!
muah!

thank GOD...

ok! i got my grades already!
matataas! may apat na uno...
sablay lng ung humanities...
2.25 kc... he-he! pero ok lng!
grabe sobrang saya ko talaga!
i got a general weighted average of 1.361...
men! whew! napanganga ako!
hahaha!
this is a good start for me...
pagbubutihin ko pa lalo ang pag aaral para dito...
promise yan...
salamat sa lahat ng naniniwala sa akin...
kay BRO... thank you po!
college friends... hayskul ones!
thank you so much!
ma... pa... salamat po sa suporta!
i love you po!
ok... scholarship...
here i come...
till next time buddies!
muah!

frustrated writer...

nababaliw na ata ako...
hindi... matagal na pala...
simula pa ng araw na ipinanganak ako... hehe.
this past few days naaaliw na ako sa pagbabasa ng mga pocketbooks...
precious hearts romances...
stallion series...
by sonia francesca and sofia...
nakakaloka!
everytime matatapos ako sa pagbabasa...
pati tuloy sarili kong lovelife...
pinoproblema ko na...
hala?! patay tau jan!
hahaha!
it's just that naiinggit lng ako sa stories ng mga karakter na binabasa ko...
namimiss ko na tuloy ang feeling ng in love...
lintek! iba na to!
minsan, gusto ko na rin pasukin pati ang pagiging writer...
para mailabas ko lahat ng frustrations ko sa pag ibig...
ganito talaga pag bigo... hek! hek!
whatever... well, kilala pa naman ng puso ko ang salitang pagmamahal..
cguro hindi muna ngayon...
may be some other time around...
tama..
some other time around...

i was so touched by MMK's episode last night - SULO. it was about a barrio school and its students striving for their future as an institution for education.
naalala ko tuloy ang pangarap ko noong maging teacher. naiyak ako kagabi. dun ko ulit narealize kung gaano kahalaga ang edukasyon lalo na sa panahon ngayon. ang mga walang pinag-aralan, sila ang nagdurusa. ang mga nakatuntong ng eskwelahan, sila ang tinitingala.
hangad ko ring tingalain. pero higit pa doon ang purpose ko kaya ako nagsisikap. gusto ko matupad ang mga pangarap ko. ang magkaroon ng sariling restaurant. ang maging performer. ang makatulong sa mga nangangailangan. ang makatulong sa kalikasan.
marami akong gustong gawin. sobra! kaya nagsisikap talaga ako para mangyari ang mga un.
ang pagiging teacher, it's more than just a profession. hindi sila nagtititser para sa pera. kundi sa likas na pagpapahalaga nila sa edukasyon at kabataan. kaya mahal ko ang mga naging teacher ko. kung ano ako ngayon, bahagi noon ay dahil sa kanila.
sila ang pangalawang magulang ng mga bata. at proud akong maging magulang sila. pahalagahan natin sila. wag nating sabihin na, "teacher lang yan!" hindi lang sila teacher. mga tao silang inilaan ang buhay para sa pag unlad ng kabataan. ginagawa nila ang lahat para hindi sila maligaw ng landas. natutunan ko sa school ang mga bagay na di ko nakuha sa bahay.
MA'AM... SIR... SALAMAT PO! THANK YOU SA LAHAT!

alam mo daryl...
kagabi umiyak ulit ako...
nung naalala kita...
panu sa bday mo...
kaya kaya kitang batiin...
kaya ko kayang sabihin sayo na...
happy birthday...
sana masaya ka...
sa kung sinuman ang may hawak ng puso mo ngayon..
parang dinudurog ako kapag naiisip ko un...

kagabi may tumawag sa bahay...
si jeff..
nagulat ako dun ah...
mahal pa rin daw niya ako...
ako naman, speechless..
ayoko siyang saktan....
kaya ako lumalayo...
ayoko siyang paasahin..
i know magiging masaya naman siya with his gf...

anu bang nagyayari sa kin...
hindi ko na rin alam...
gusto ko naman makamove on eh...
bakit ba ayaw ng isang parte ko...
nakakainis...
wala akong magawa...
behind these strong walls...
is a vulnerable heart...

tanga lng cguro talaga ako...
saka masokista..
kelan ba darating ung taong kaya akong ipaglaban...
ung handa siyang iwan ang lahat para sa kin...
ung hindi ko kailangang magpanggap...
sana dumating na xa...
para hindi na ako sumubok ng mga walang kwentang relasyon...
please.. asan ka na ba??

haaay...

single... again...

it's ok...
it was my choice...
i just broke up with my boyfriend...
JEFFREY ROMUALDO...
we both know it won't work anyway...
so bakit pa?
besides...
hindi pwedeng dalawa sila sa puso ko...
oo hanggang ngayon...
si DARYL CHRISTOPHER MOLINA pa rin...
ang lalaking mahal ko...
ang taong sinaktan ako...
ang taong patuloy na tinitibok ng puso ko...
pero alam mo...
nahihirapan na rin ako...
alam ko he's with someone else already...
minsan tinatanong ko na rin sa sarili ko...
kung minahal ba talaga niya ako...
kung nasan ka man ngayon...
sana masaya ka sa taong may hawak ng puso mo ngayon...
ako... ewan ko...
bahala na...
kung saan ako dadalhin ng sakit na to...
bugbog na ako daryl...
:'(
jeff, im sorry...
sana maintindihan mo ako...
i know i was just your option...
goodbye...

life, love, and philosophy

I am an Arian – born under the sign of Aries on the 8th of April, 1993. I’m Bryan, eldest son of Romualda and Dominador Servillejo, 16 years of age. My sign characterizes me as someone who is adventurous, outspoken and born as a leader. Adventurous – taking risks is what I usually do but I don’t want to get into trouble; it’s just that I always look for something new. Outspoken – I say whatever pops out of my head, and a lot of people both love and hate me for that. Born as a leader – I really don’t believe on this. A lot of times I was chosen a leader, an officer or the one who speaks in front. I guess, it’s not because of my capability as such, it’s just that there’s something about me that I, myself, don’t even know what it is.
I’ve gone through relationships, guys came in and gone, made me cry a lot of times, became stupid but learned at the same time. If life is about making choices, then love, for me, is about taking risks. Inspiration – this is what I’m after for that’s why I get myself into such. It becomes my driving force to work for what I want and study hard as well. Those commitments may not be serious at all, but then, I did love those stupid guys I’ve been with. I’m in a relationship right now but honestly, I still can’t forget that guy before him whom I still love… until now.

I’ve been keeping a collection of quotes from text messages and famous lines from films and people whom I’ve known for quite a long time. They’ve been a part of me already, for they reflect me as well. Here’s one of my favorites: you don’t have to be somebody else just to fit in someone else’s standard… be the standard. From the day I got this line, I’ve been living up to it already. I’m not just a fag you see walking around the streets of the metro. I believe that there’s something about me which makes me unique. People who love and appreciate me find their way and break through my walls; those who disgust me remain ignorant and keep on asking who I really am.

This is my life, love and philosophy. Life’s trials and struggles of all aspects made me stronger and wiser. I can be mean at times. But I could still be your ever loyal friend, a brother or sister as you wish, and a faithful lover you could be with….

i wrote this one not bcoz i know that ur reading my posts..
gusto ko lang sabihin sau ung mga bagay na gusto kong malaman mo..
cnagot kita hindi dahil gusto kong ipamukha sa sarili ko na kaya ko agad siyang palitan..
it's just that i want to give myself another chance..
though maraming beses ko ng ginawa un para sa sarili ko..
i want you to know na willing akong kalimutan siya..
it would take time...yes...
kaya sana mahintay mo ako..
darating din ung time na hindi mo na siya magiging kahati sa puso ko..
someday, ikaw na lang din ang laman nito..
wen dat time comes, sana wala na rin akong kahati sayo..
i know everything's gonna be fine..
sabi nga nila..
we had the right love..
at the wrong time..
but i know..
and i believe..
magtutugma din ung dalawang un..
kung para talaga tau sa isa't isa..
magiging tayo..
no matter what..
for now..
JEFFREY ROMUALDO..
MAHAL KITA..
TANDAAN MO YAN..

I can still remember yesterday
We were so in love in a special way
And knowing that your love
Made me feel... Oh... So right

But now I feel lost
Don't know what to do
Each and everyday I think of you
Holdin' back the tears
I'm trying with all my might

Because you've gone and left me
Standin' all alone
And I know I've got to face
Tomorrow on my own
But baby

Before I let you go
I want to say I love you...
I hope that you're listenin'
'Coz it's true, baby...
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will doohh... yeah...
So before I let you go
I want to say I love you...

I wish that it could be
Just like before
I know I could've given you
So much more
Even though you know
I've given you all my love

I miss your smile, I miss your kiss
Each and everyday I reminisce
'Coz baby it's you
That I'm always dreamin' of

Because you've gone and left me
Standin' all alone
And I know I've got to face
Tomorrow on my own
But baby

Before I let you go
I want to say I love you...
I hope that you're listenin'
'Coz it's true, baby...
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will doohh... yeah...
So before I let you go
I want to say

Cause letting love go is never easy
But I love you so
That's why I set you free
I know someday, somehow
I'll find a way
To leave it all behind me
Guess it wasn't meant to be my baby

Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin'
'Coz it's true, baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do
So before I let you go
I want to say...
So before I let you go
I want to say...

I love you...

remember this song? daryl christopher molina...
bakit ba hindi kita malimutan...
i want to move on... but i can't...
bullshit.
siguro nga...
mahal pa rin kita...
hanggang ngayon...
pero alam kong wala na...

hoy!

namiss ko 'to!

hahaha!!

andami ko kukwento a inyo!

kaso may gagawin pa ako eh..

basta..

eto ulit c chef bryan!

nagbago na ako ng no..

09261963564...

college na nga pala ako...

sa ust..

hrm student..

freshman..

ay naku!

basta!

next time talaga!

promise!

i love you all!

mwua!